Reflection

I would like to thank all of you that have left comments on my last entry. They have raised my spirits. Last night when Jess Winn dropped me off and I had to come into home it felt so lonely and empty. I set and cried for while then I came across a song call "The Test" by Janice Kapp Perry. The words of the song reminded me of the purpose of this life and that this life is in fact a test and this is my test. The next day (today in fact) I walked around my house looking at all of the pictures of Lorena and me remembering the our life we had together and how wonderful it was. I miss Lorena horribly but I know that this separation will only be a sort time and then we will be together again and this brings me happiness and there is the magic. The answer to my lament in the my last entry.

About a week before Lorena passed away I walked into the bedroom and discovered this quite little scene. Both my mother and Lorena were fast asleep and I could not resist taking this photo.

14 May 2009

As I set hear trying to start this entry I find that I am at a lose for word. When my Lorena started this blog she put at the top of it the lyrics to a song "Got to believe in magic", and as I struggle to write I'm thinking to myself, "where is the magic"? On the fifth of May my sweetheart, Lorena, pass away after a long drawn out battle with gastric cancer. When she died part of me died and when I buried her yesterday, 13 May 2009, part of me was buried with her. Life to me at this present time seems so empty without Lorena. She made my life so wonderful and I can't believe that she is not here with me. So, I ask here is the magic?
I guess the magic is in having been able to share my life with such a wonderful woman like Lorena and in knowing GOD's plan of happiness. I can't write any more at this time because everything is to fresh and painful for me.
More to follow...