Reflection

I would like to thank all of you that have left comments on my last entry. They have raised my spirits. Last night when Jess Winn dropped me off and I had to come into home it felt so lonely and empty. I set and cried for while then I came across a song call "The Test" by Janice Kapp Perry. The words of the song reminded me of the purpose of this life and that this life is in fact a test and this is my test. The next day (today in fact) I walked around my house looking at all of the pictures of Lorena and me remembering the our life we had together and how wonderful it was. I miss Lorena horribly but I know that this separation will only be a sort time and then we will be together again and this brings me happiness and there is the magic. The answer to my lament in the my last entry.

About a week before Lorena passed away I walked into the bedroom and discovered this quite little scene. Both my mother and Lorena were fast asleep and I could not resist taking this photo.

14 May 2009

As I set hear trying to start this entry I find that I am at a lose for word. When my Lorena started this blog she put at the top of it the lyrics to a song "Got to believe in magic", and as I struggle to write I'm thinking to myself, "where is the magic"? On the fifth of May my sweetheart, Lorena, pass away after a long drawn out battle with gastric cancer. When she died part of me died and when I buried her yesterday, 13 May 2009, part of me was buried with her. Life to me at this present time seems so empty without Lorena. She made my life so wonderful and I can't believe that she is not here with me. So, I ask here is the magic?
I guess the magic is in having been able to share my life with such a wonderful woman like Lorena and in knowing GOD's plan of happiness. I can't write any more at this time because everything is to fresh and painful for me.
More to follow...

My thoughts and feelings about live and some of happenings in our lives.

28 March 2009
This is Johnny Wilson, I'm here in my house with my wife Lorena. She is laying in the bed. It is a rainy Saturday Afternoon. In fact it has been raining all day and there has not been any sunshine from morning 'til the present time. There is a river running through my back yard and my dog will at times go outside and run through the water and then come into the house. At the dog's point of entry I have to ambush him with a towel, wrestle him to the ground and remove all water and mud from him before goes racing through out the house in his never ending search for adventure.


10 April 2009
I started this entry about a week ago and everything has come full circle. It is again raining and and there is once again a raging river in our backyard. I just waiting for the wind to gush down and in a fit of anger destroy my shed like a twister in a trailer park.
It is now Friday evening the 10th of April. Lorena is fast asleep and I'm setting up writing this blog thinking about our life and the resent happenings in our lives, most recently Lorena's sister Ginggnig has come from the Philippines to with her 18 month old son JB, to see her.

Just a few week prior we had friends come down from Indiana. Joe and Brenda Bunkert, Brenda's Mom Hedi and thier two kids Natasha, Joe Jr.. Brenda is a Filippina from Escalante, Negros Oriental, Philippines. Lorena just explained to me the origins of their relationship, but I was just to slow to understand the complexities of what she told me. But suffice it say they are friends and they are both from the Island of Negros in the Philippines, and they did in very fact come from Indiana to visit us and we enjoyed their company and they left to soon.

The week before before that our friends Ken (aka Chuck Norris) and Donna and their little girl Phebe Jade came to see us. It was great to have them here. Lorena was able to talk about old times back in the Philippines when she was a young lady about the age of 18 or 19 work for an Indian couple there. Before I met Ken and Donna, Lorena would always about how this guy that looked like Chuck Norris taught her how to ride a bike. I finally got to meet them in May of 2006 just before I left for Iraq and Lorena had a wonderful reunion after some twenty years. They live on lake Cayuga in the Finger Lakes Area. They are great people. I loved having them in our home and to be able to see the love that they have for me sweetheart. (I don't remember the name of the place that Lorena lived in the Luzon were she first knew Ken and Donna. I usually get the information from Lorena but she is fast a sleep and I don't want to wake her. So, Donna if you could provide me with the information I would appreciate it.)

18 April 2009

This has been a long entry time wise and I'm back setting in my chair beside my sweetheart as she sleeps and I'm wondering how much longer I get to have her here with me. A few weeks ago I bought the our cemetery plots and I was so depressed, because my sweetheart is going to be taken away from me. Every day she gets weaker just standing up and walking to the next room takes every bit of energy that she has and it wipes her out for the rest of the day. But despite her fragile condition her faith is strong and she continues to be an inspiration to me. I said that I get depressed that my sweetheart, Lorena, is being taken from me but I know that if I am faithful and endure to the end she will not be taken from me, rather we will only be separated for a sort time and then when it is time for me to leave this mortal existance we will be together again for time and all eternaity.
"And again, verily I say unto you, if a man marry a wife by my word, which is my law, and by the new and everlasting covenant, and it is sealed unto them by the Holy Spirit of promise, by him who is anointed, unto whom I have appointed this power and the keys of this priesthood; and it shall be said unto them—Ye shall come forth in the first resurrection; and if it be after the first resurrection, in the next resurrection; and shall inherit thrones, kingdoms, principalities, and powers, dominions, all heights and depths—then shall it be written in the Lamb’s Book of Life, that he shall commit no murder whereby to shed innocent blood, and if ye abide in my covenant, and commit no murder whereby to shed innocent blood, it shall be done unto them in all things whatsoever my servant hath put upon them, in time, and through all eternity; and shall be of full force when they are out of the world; and they shall pass by the angels, and the gods, which are set there, to their exaltation and glory in all things, as hath been sealed upon their heads, which glory shall be a fulness and a continuation of the seeds forever and ever.

Then shall they be gods, because they have no end; therefore shall they be from everlasting to everlasting, because they continue; then shall they be above all, because all things are subject unto them. Then shall they be gods, because they have all power, and the angels are subject unto them (Doctrine and Covenants 132:19-20).

What a beautiful day. Lorena and I are setting here in our living room looking out the window on a stunningly wonderful Sunday afternoon. It is a glorious day to be here on earth. Everyday that we have is a precious gift from GOD.

We came home from the hospital February 16, 2009. Since coming we have had some rough times and we have had some supremely wonderful times here in our home. On Saturday February 21 our stake president, President MacArthur and Elder John B. Dickson of the First Quorum of the Seventy came to our home to visit us. Elder Dickson was the visiting General Authority at our Stake Conference. It was a wonderful experience to have two of the LORD's servants come into our home and talk with us and to leave a blessing on our home.

And later that day our home was invaded by some northern aggressors, North Carolina that is. Our friends Sean and Lingling and their two kids Jannelle and Kyle came down from North Carolina and spent the day with us. Me and Rocky had a grand old time torturing those kids.












On the first of March Johnny was promoted from captain to the rank of major.

(Me and Lorena at my Brother's wedding. Lorena is the sexy one)

The last update that I made I put in a picture of a tornado funnel and a huge bolt of lightning and said something like if the lightning doesn't get you the tornado will. Well it seem like the tornado has set down and in the trailer park and doing what tornadoes do in trailer parks.
We have had our test and trials in the last couple of months and it seems as though there is no end in sight to the trials. When ever we think that things are getting better something happens and that is all that I'm going to say right now because it is all to painful to write right now. I wrote to many e-mails and talk to to many people explaining what has happen to Lorena and every time I break down and start to cry like a baby.
I just want everybody to know that We have not given up and we know who we have put our trust in. "Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened."(Mathew 7:7-8)

We have put our live in the hands of the Master and we believe that all things are possible to them that believe.
Thanks to everybody who have showed there love and support for Lorena in our time of need and we hope that we will be able to do the same.














Lorena in Sedona Arizona (Top) Lorena at Oakcreek Canyon (bottom)

December 2008 / January 2009

Hello from Grovetown, Georgia. One of our friends sent this picture to us and at this point in our lives it seems to be an accurate depiction of the last couple of months. A worker at this oil refinery took a picture of the lightning bolt only to discover the ominous tornado funnel that was illuminated by the lightnings flash. Well as I said this last couple month seem like this picture, if the lightning doesn't get the tornado surely will.

December and January has been marked by frequent hospital stays, but for the most part we were able to spend the holidays at home. We did spend Thanksgiving in the hospital and a few families bought the holiday to us. They brought all the festive victuals to Lorena's hospital room.

Here are the families that came on Thanksgiving.
The handsome one is me and the most beautiful woman is Lorena. The Hardmens, The Mullers and the Soules. I know that Thanksgiving is in November and this is a December / January update, but on my last update I got some complaints about my not mentioning Thanksgiving, so in an effort to show my appreciation to all for everything that has been done for us while Lorena has been under the weather I put here and say thank you.



Lorena in sexy Christmas sweeter.

Two crazy women that broke into the hospital terrorizing the patients. The last I heard they had been caught and are vacationing at the state asylum.
















The group of carolers that shared there Christmas spirit with us on Christmas Eve.

I would like to thank everybody who has given us so much help and shown so much love to us since Lorena has been under the weather. Everybody at Church and for my Mom who came here to Georgia about mid-December to the present time.
The caroler where pretty good, but the big bold guy really carried the group.


Lorena is back in the Hospital and will having surgery on Monday 26 January 2009 and after this she should be good to go after her recovery. Please pray for her that she will have a full recover, so she can start posting our family blog again.














Lorena with a tube in her nose and Dr MacFayden, her surgeon.

The Adventures of November 2008

The month of November has been one fraught with peril and adventure. To start of the this tale we must go back to the month of October on the 31st day, when Lorena went to the GI doctor to have an endoscopy. When we went to the Medical College of Georgia Hospital to this procedure done we were full expect to go home in about two hours from the time that we checked in for the appointment and ready to receive all of the greedy little trick-or-treaters asking for hand outs. Well, it it is now 30 November and we are still in the hospital.
To say the least Lorena and I have gone though a lot this month. But despite the chest tubes, ventilator tubes, torn (or as the doctors call it perforated) intestines and all the other stuff that has happened the Lord has been good to us. We are both still alive. Our faith in the healing power of the Lord has increased a hundred fold.
Other things that have happened.
I relinquished my command after a year of holding the coveted title of Stealth Bomber 6. During the change of command ceremony I had two of my Soldiers deliver a dozen red roses to Lorena at MCG hospital. So even though she was not there she still played an important role in the ceremony which is symbolic of the major role that she as my wife as played in my success as a commander.


Privates Ulrich and Baer delivering flowers to Lorena at MCG Hospital1SG Fredrick (Big Head Fred) Murry and SFC Tamika Robinson presenting the Heart of Ordnance to Lorena after the Change of Command ceremony.

This ends the blog for the month of November more follow for December. . .Johnny Wilson just looking sexy. . .

Johnny after a good crash because on a Moab trip because Lorena was getting all of the attention.